The wisdom to know the difference
by ThatJimGuy on Nov.04, 2009, under Family, Legal
I’ve decided not to be like my family by pressing criminal charges against them, even though they broke the law and caused me much strife and suffering. I’m better than them and refuse to file charges just because they are ignorant. They won’t learn anything, and they won’t get the help they need from me doing this.
So I’ll just concentrate on my problems and do the best I can with my life, and the hell with them. Oh, I’ll still get my belongings or fair compensation, but it can’t be both (can’t press criminal charges in hopes to gain advantage in another case). I can do this and will with every legal means within my power. All I want are the things I can’t replace. I don’t understand what the problem is, but I don’t really have to. I know it’s not my problem, so I can’t fix that.
They can lie and say what they want. I don’t care. I know my faults and am trying my best to make myself a better person. I can only hope and pray that someday they will see the light and do the same. Do the right thing. Unless they are so far gone they have forgotten the difference between right and wrong, but that too, I have no control over. I’ll still pray for them though.
I know I’ve been bouncing back and forth as to what to do about this fucked up situation, but I’ve decided that the best course of action is to follow the advice of my legal counsel.
So, with that said, I’ll be removing some stuff from my blog. Mainly anything to do with legal actions I was or am considering, and anything I posted out of frustration and anger for being wronged so. It serves no purpose other than to make me look like I hate my family. I don’t hate them. I don’t understand them, but I do know that like me, they all need help, and again, I hope and pray that they will someday get it. I can do no more than that.
I hope that everything will be resolved someday with the least amount of financial and emotional impact on all involved. That too, is all I can hope and pray for. Unless the family members involved get help, like I did, I doubt very much that I will speak to them again, except when both necessary and allowed.
It might all work out someday, but time moves quickly and as long as my family holds these grudges and bad intent towards me, it just plain won’t. There’s just not enough time left in our lives to work things out when only one side (me) wishes to.
So, with that, I will move on with my life. I will do whatever my lawyer suggests, and continue to repeat the Serenity prayer. Not sure what I can change and what I cannot, so I have to concentrate on the third part:
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.